I know exactly how you feel.
I bought "New Nyx" at the back end of last year. I had a stark choice. Buy the boat that on paper, looked to be ticking all the boxes, or risk not getting it because of my delay.
I am still yet to see my new boat but have owned it for approaching 3 months now. Hacked off? yes, very, but I still think I was right to buy.
I was unable to view back in Oct/Nov because I'm caring for an elderly lady. On Wednesday, she had a fall and is, for the time being, back in Hospital. So... I'm freed up and can go and see my new boat... Whoops, no I can't... Lockdow